Please help! I BINGED so badly that I am ready to KILL myself! x_x ?

I have a story to tell you about one of my many binges. This one time when I was anorexic, I went to a buffet with my mom, dad, and sister. I freaked out, I had four dishes of food, piled high of everything. Mac and cheese, pizza, cookies, ice cream, french fries, potato's, you name it. I ate and ate and ate, and I felt like I was going to die. I thought I was going to explode. I cried the whole day, and I wanted to die. But even though I felt really bad before we left the place, I put cookies in my pockets and took an ice cream cone to go. I have not gone to a buffet since. I just want to let you know, that if you don't get help, you are going to end up in the hospital, or later on in life you are going to have weight problems or become an emotional eater like me. I have answered your questions for a long time, and if you go back, you will see how people have warned you that these things would happen. I really am worried for you, and you are such an amazing person and so damn gifted. It hurts my heart that you are going down the same path I went down. Please please seek help, I wish someone helped me when I was going through what you are going through. I am only telling you this because I really do care, and I know that may seem like bullshit, but it is the truth. I just dont want anything bad to happen to you.